It's every creative's dream to work for themselves, and this one is about to do it.
I've been watching a lot of Rupaul's Drag Race recently in preparation for a really cool project coming up through Baby Pomegranate Productions (hint, hint). Ru has a lyric in one of her songs that has really been ringing out to me lately:
and if I fly, or if I fall
least I can say I gave it all
It has been my goal for a very long time to work for myself, creating things that I really care about. Taking on projects that are much larger than myself. I can invest a different kind of energy into the work that I want to do, and really go for it.
Of course, as one could imagine, this is a terrifying leap of faith. Sleepless nights, stressful days, and a LOT of crying have helped me come to the conclusion that now is the time.
It's quite interesting that, as a creative, unless I feed my brain the content that I want to produce, that "spark" goes stale. It's like nurturing a plant; if you want it to grow, you have to feed it sunlight and water, and give it room. Lately, I have been shoving my plant into the corner and neglecting it. Then, I get frustrated when it's not growing.
Over the last couple of weeks, I've gone over to the shadowed area, and I have wrote out a list of creative goals for myself. I have done a lot of reflecting, praying, meditating and thinking and I keep coming back to the same revelation: if I never try, I'll never know. So, I planned a slight re-design of my brand, put in my notice at my corporate nine-to-five and I'm hitting the ground running. I'm walking up to the edge, curling my toes, taking a deep breath and...
taking the plunge.